Name: Cheryl
Info:: I never in my life thought I would and could have been deceitful
to one human being as I was for close to 2 years but I turned out to be
the Internet horror story. It also started out crossing paths one
day in a chat room. I had an alias name of Natasha and with it also came
an alias age and background. I was 36 but to the world of chatting I was
22 at the time.
When I first entered the chat rooms my intention was never to get involved
with anyone but at this period of time in my life I guess I was feeling
lonely and was just looking for people to chat with. But for some reason
this man who messaged me grabbed my attention. He was 27 and we both ended
up living in the same city. I created this "sad" story of my past as a
reason not to have to meet anyone. The first time we chatted was for 6
hours. We shared, we laughed and I believe we enjoyed each others company.
We chatted almost every night for over a year and this man totally trusted
me and everything I created, not because he was gullible but because I
was good at the fantasy.
When I chatted I did become Natasha, I would escape my world and move
into hers with him. I wasn't doing this to hurt him or be deceitful I was
just happy being with him. Close to a year of chatting I did finally called
him and we then moved onto the phone. I used that sad story to keep from
meeting him because I wasn't the girl I made. I sent him pictures of someone
else who of course was perfect and there was absolutely no reason any guy
would have not believed who I was.
We shared everything and every day together, we became one in
each others life. We talked on the phone for close to a year and
I'm not sure why to this day still but after being away for a week, I came
home, called him, told him the truth and crushed his world. I told
him everything from my age to my life. I was ripping his heart out and
making him feel stupid for believing in me, that is the part that hurts
me the most, him feeling stupid because of what I did. That I cared for
this man so much and yet I could hurt him this way. I cared for this man
in everyway and he cared for Natasha but I was tearing her away from him.
He hated me so much that night and I deserved every word he yelled
at me. This all happened over a month ago and believe it or not he is still
my friend but not to the degree he was with Natasha. I lost a lot telling
him the truth but I also destroyed another humans trust in people.
I can never tell him enough how sorry I am for what I did to him and had
NO right to do. I was so lucky to have found such a caring man who
after what I did to him he is still my friend. But to others out there
in the world of the net.....be careful....you never know who is behind
the perfect words you need to hear......it could also be your worse nightmare
as I turned out to be......I'm sorry
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