Name: Sandy

Info:: I had come home from school early one day.  And I decided to go online.  Well I got a random on ICQ.  It was a 17 year old male from Oregon.  Well so I thought it was.  We talked for quite some time.  And everyday we would talk.  I loved talking to "Nolan". And he said he loved talking to me.  And how he missed me so much when we didn't talk.  Well it wasn't long before I was smitten by him.  He told me everything (or so I thought) He told me about how both of his parent died.  His twin brother was dead, and he was living on his own.  I was so touched that he told me all of this.  Then he told me that he loved me.  And I thought it was love.

Well he had told me that he was moving to another town in Oregon.  I was crushed, because he wasn't going to have the internet for a while.  I gave him my phone number for him to call me.  I really didn't think he was going to call me.  But one day he did.  I had never talked to him on the phone before and it was very weird.  He talked really low.  But I didn't think anything of it.  He said he was going to try and get online as soon as he could.  It was about a month or so that I didn't talk to him.  I thought about him a couple of times, but I really didn't care anymore.  Until that one day that he came back online.  I was in shock and happy at the same time.  I didn't really think he was going to get back online.  He told me he couldn't stand not talking to me and how much he loved me.  We talked all night that night.  I went to bed at 7 am the next day.  Well a couple of days later we were talking, and he told me he had a question to ask me.  SO I was all ears.  Well the question was if I would marry him.  I was so happy I said yes.

Well it was time for me to go off to college.  I didn't have access to the internet right away.  So we would talk on the phone every night. He even planned to come up to PA for Christmas vacation. And while I was gone.  My friend started talking to him, and said she fell in love with him, and he told me how he liked her.  Well I was crushed.  But he still told me that he wanted to marry me and that I was the only one for him.  She may have had him, but I had his heart.

One day I thought I would call him, I knew he was at work, but I wanted to tell whoever answered the phone for him to call me when he got home. Well I was in for a shock. The person that answered the phone had said that there was no "Nolan" that he died a year ago. I didn't believe it. Well "Nolan" called me back and made everything ok.

Our last conversation is one that I remember so clearly.  He had called me and told me that I had to find a way to call him back. He was so angry with me. I had told my friend "Amanda" that me and "Nolan" we back together.  Well "Amanda" told his other girlfriend "Tara" and she was mad at him for that.  He was yelling at me. And I just said "forget it, I don't need this trouble" and hung up the phone.  That was the last time I talked to "HIM".

Later that night "Tara" called me and told me that she called his house and the people that lived there told her everything.  That "Nolan" really was dead.  He had killed himself a year ago over a girl.  And his best friend "Katie" had flipped out over his death.  She took over his life, and his personality, and basically went psycho.  Thinking that "Nolan" lived inside her and that she could keep him alive.  I didn't know what to think.  I was so hurt and angry. 5 months down the tubes.  There was a part of me that didn't believe her, until "Katie" called me.  She told me that there was no "Nolan" and that her family was taking her away because they thought she had split-personalities.  I remember something I told her. I said "you know you sound a lot like 'Nolan"  And she said something I will never forget.  All she said was "whatever". The "Nolan" I talked to always said "whatever" and he knew I hated it. and then she said I have to go and hung up the phone.
 
 
 

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